Help!

I haven’t posted in a while, not that anyone would be interested in the musings of an average , typical 15 year old.
Sadly, I don’t have anyone whom I can truly confide in. My life’s like an ice berg- all on the top, but none within. I have a family, a few good people whom I can really count on and one solid best friend. But sometimes, some things occur in life which you choose to keep bottled up inside you. Until you feel suffocated and feel the need to vent. The need to pop the bottle and let go of everything on your chest.
I know this is pretty sadistic coming from a 15 year old , but I feel so confused of life. It’s like I’m scared. Unfortunately, I’ve gone through many hardships at home. You could say, everything is pretty complicated. Over these past 15 years, I’ve gone through a lot which still makes me cringe in horror. Think and over think. But one incident flipped my whole world upside down. My whole world shattered into pieces. The one who I trusted the most betrayed me, confirmed my worst suspicions. That I day I learnt a really very important lesson- Trust is indeed expensive.
Ever since that day, things haven’t been normal. I’ve been suffering from anxiety attacks. They can get really horrid. All the nightmares within me, attack me physically.
Sometimes it can get as worse as being under the feeling of an attack for a whole day. I’m adamant about not sharing this with anyone. Most people would Think I am just over reacting and making a big hype about this.
Can anybody help me?
It’d be really great
I’m sorry if Being a spike of negativity to your happy bubble. Well, at least I got a little load off my chest.

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